How can vegetables be Asian?

I hate being sick.  My friends are watching Da Vinci Code without me. :'(
I have nothing to dooooooo.
Except study for finals.

Oh. I love to procrastinate yet hate it at the same time. It's like someone poking with a stick at your conscience while you are trying to sleep. Like going to sleep, closing your eyes when you just realize you forgot to brush your teeth.
which is

gross.

so

I wake myself up and brush my teeth.

And that's what I'm about to do.

Except I'll probably do a million things before actually getting to it.
Like watching 20/20.

Goodbye, so I'm finally one more procrastination closer to studying.
only 999,999 more to go.

goddammit.

Well, it turns out it hasn't been THAT long since I updated.

I went to the Vietnam noodle place and this one waiter came over and said, "Ahn-young-ha-sayo?" We all blinked. And then he was like, "Aren't you Korean?"

"yes."

We must have embarassed him.  He said it again, and again - no reaction, besides me chuckling. Needless to say he fled the scene. Poor thing.  How awkward.

So.

I had a whole bunch of things written but deleted them.

goodbye.

I thought I lost my camera.

I hate it when I (think) I lose things. It's my pet peeve.  I like to feel informed and in control, especially about everything I own.  I hate it when people touch my stuff, unless it's my best friend.  Then I start freaking out which is really degrading.  So don't ever take my stuff as a joke, because I will be very pissed off.

I think I'll update later because I have something to do that I shouldn't forget and probably will if I don't do it now.

hello everyone :]

I was drawing Kurt today.
But he doesn't look too good.

I wish I was better at drawing.  I don't do him justice.

Yes, it's me. Who else would it be?
Not really sure what you're expecting when you came here. A list of what I did today? Maybe a boring entry? Hmm. I wouldn't be suprised.

I went laser tagging today, my friend's brother's late birthday party.  I only got 28 people. And 21 the first time, while my friends were getting 55. I have very, very seriously poor aim.

And then I went to Buffalo Grill or something like that. They have very good potato wedges.

And then I learned that KFC boiled their chickens alive.  Which is so very...wrong? Inhumane? But of course it's humanly... It's what us humans do.   Torture other beings that are defenseless against us, with our shotguns and boiling water and our stomping foots.  Isn't it?  I hope not.
It irritates me that people don't think ants have souls, that animals don't have souls. "Because they live by instinct."  What makes humans so much better than fleas? Moths? Because we have a bigger brain? What makes us have a soul and them not? And you're saying humans don't live by instinct. When you don't even know why you're living, what you're living for.  And it isn't our instinct to... live?
So we live by instinct.
So we don't have souls?
Or do all living creatures have souls?
I think it's either one or the other.

Sometimes I wish I was a vile, insignificant [not human] being. Sometimes I wish I was a mosquito. But then sometimes I'm glad I'm a human being instead of anything else. And then I think I should be scared of that thought. But of course, what else should I expect? I am a human being after all.

On a brighter note, I can chug a bottle of water in 17 seconds.

Spring is here again -
Reproductive glands
(nature is a whore)

I have the layout made... I have two layouts made actually.  I'm just too lazy.

And I have so much to do.

Like hanging out, memorizing 2 guitar pieces, working on 2 other guitar pieces, and art tomorrow, having to go shopping, and waking up early, and watch movies.

Important things.

Anyway, today I hung out with friends and now I'm just sulking because I have only just realized that I am unappreciated by a certain someone when I feel like I have done so much for them. And more sulking because I have only just realized it.  Kind of like when you like someone and you realize that they will never ever like you.
Only not really. But kind of. Actually, very kind of like that.

And more sulking.

And promising myself that I won't make this entry private this time, because I'm afraid someone besides the kiddos are reading it.

Every time I feel somebody doesn't appreciate who I am, I just try and cut myself off of them.  I guess that isn't the best solution to the problem so maybe I should stop.
But it's hard trying to be nice to someone who you know doesn't think much of you, when you've done things for them.

And he's just manipulative, and can't accept the fact that being older and having a penis doesn't make him better than me.

And he can shove it up his ass. Because I don't have to be nice to him.

What can I say? I'm just a nice person.

edit: Apologies to anybody who visits my xanga because right now you can't get anywhere except by using the url thing or the back button.

were rotten fruit
were damaged goods
what the hell

we got nothing more to lose

one gust and we will probably
crrruuuuuuuuuuumble
cruuuuuuuuuuumble.

were backdrifting

this far, but no further
im hanging off a branch
im teetering on the brink

oh honeysweet
so full of sleep

im backsliding

you fell into our arms
you fell into our arms
we tried, but there was nothing we could do
nothing we could do

all evidence has been buried.

Hi.

I think I am going to Pho 89 Cafe. Then eat "the usual:" number 8 without pork. Fresh bean sprouts, please.
Then maybe, and hopefully, LoverBoy will be working and I will be able to visit him.

Oh, and see some people.  Feel their aura.  His too.

I'm excited.

edit: he was there. I can't believe he was actually there. But then he was wearing a CAP. Who wears a freaking CAP?!?
I was very disappointed. Maybe he was just having a bad hair day.

But he wasn't as cute as I remembered. 

Damn.

Edit: If anyone knows the username of the complete nirvana layout xanga, it would be very nice. I forgot.

MY XANGA IS OFFICIALLY NOW

DEAD

have fun

edit: I'm not quitting.

Yeah, I know. I'm a slacker. But that's okay.
I'm kind of pissy because someone won't pick up the phone.  And I feel clingy.

But I'm always kind of pissy anyway. 

And now my xanga's boring.

Even though it has been boring for a while now.

Or has it just been boring forever?

I want to make a password thing.  So nobody I don't know can't look at this crap.

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